This week I’d like to talk about what’s been going on with me. My life is approaching one of those amazing crossroads that we all find ourselves in from time to time in life. It’s an exciting and kind of scary time for me. As I’ve posted about a lot lately, my anxiety has been pretty high lately because of it. I’ve known for quite a while now that this was coming but I didn’t know what it would be or how it would shape up. So now I have a pretty good idea of what the next phase of my life, or mission, is going to be about and I have a lot of decisions to make about how to birth this next chapter. To call it a chapter actually feels too minimalistic and trivial. I want to call it a new volume; like volume II or maybe even volume III. Not sure on the number.
I’ve mentioned in general terms many times here how I went through a transformation over the past several years. I will one day give you all of the nitty gritty details of what that was about, but for now, let me just tell you that it was huge and I am basically a new person because of it. And along with being a new person, I’m presented with the opportunity to continue this transformation into other areas of my life that are not as satisfying as they once were. You could say that I graduated from the first transformation and now I’m working on my second degree in transforming my life. The first transformation was very personal and took me deep into my psyche and past history from birth to today. I peeled my life back, layer by layer, and dissected it meticulously to get to the root of who I truly am. It was slow and tedious and an arduous task to say the least, but it was necessary. This second part is about what I do with my life professionally for at least the next ten years.
Professionally, I have not been all that happy for a long time. Maybe ever. I started college thinking I was going to become a music teacher or join a military band but personal issues got in the way of both of those things and I ended up dropping out of the education program and abandoning my hopes of being a member of the military. I still mourn the loss of being a military musician. I had wanted to be a soldier since I was a small child, but it just was not to be, at least in this lifetime. So, I focused on being a freelance musician and combined that with teaching privately as well as learning to repair musical instruments. Eventually, I found that my day job as a band repairman paid my bills and made me happy for the most part, even though it didn’t pay that well or have nice benefits like teaching or being in the military would provide. It was one of many compromises I made in my life to accommodate other personal factors that were of more importance at the time.
Eventually I opened up my own repair business and have built it into a full fledged music store with all the toppings. I never wanted to own a music store. My dream was to have my own little repair shop where I could work in peace and do things my way. The reality is anything but that. The stress of the business has had me near mental breakdowns several times in the last 18 years. And now, with Amazon offering my products for less money and free next day shipping, my profits are dropping every year while the cost of staying in business (rent, employee wages, etc.) keep going up. It’s getting harder and harder to stay in business.
So now I have this dilemma, or decision to make. Do I close my shop? Do I close the store and just be a shop again? Do I move to a cheaper location? What do I want to do? My lease is up for renewal in June and I need to do something before then. So I have an opportunity to really figure out what I want to do with my shop for the next phase of my life. I have these other interests now too that I didn’t have back in 2000 when I opened my shop. I’m doing coaching and intuitive readings and can do Reiki healings and I’m very interested in all of this spiritual, metaphysical “stuff” more than I am fixing flutes now. Do I even want to keep fixing flutes? Much to think about.
It might sound really overwhelming to you, and it kind of is. But, honestly, to me it’s like a huge breath of fresh air because it represents an opportunity for a fresh start and a renewal professionally. I get the chance for a “do-over” of sorts. I can decide what direction to move my business in this time based solely on what I want. Not what other people say I should do or the community demands. This is a chance to reclaim my business and put it back on track and end my career steering my ship in the direction I want to go towards. It’s the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s hope. It’s a break from the doldrums of the same old crap day in and day out.
But in order to make my choice, the Universe, my Guides, are asking me to dissect all of this like I did for my personal transformation and clear out all the old baggage that has attached itself to me. They are asking me to clear and release energy from other people that has attached itself to me and the business. They’re asking me to have conversations with my 18 year old business and ask it what IT wants me to do. I have a lot of work to do. But not as much as the last time. In my heart I already know what I want, but I do need to do this work too in order to get myself on the right track.
Transforming your life is a lot of work if you do it right. Sure you could just pack everything up and move to a new city and “start over”. But if you don’t clear out all of this old crap, you’ll just be taking it with you and soon you’ll find that you have the same problems as you did in your old life. The problems will follow you. I don’t want that. Just like many of us have garage sales before we move to clean out stuff we no longer need, when you transform some aspect of your life, you need to clean out the old unnecessary baggage and get rid of it in order to make room for new things that you do want to come in. Yes, it’s a lot of work, but I assure you it is SO worth it in the end. When my business life is transformed, going to work is going to be a much more pleasurable experience. I guarantee you that.
Do you have an area of your life that needs an overhaul? I can help you figure out a game plan and walk you through the process of the house cleaning that needs to happen. As a coach, I don’t profess to be able to do something that I haven’t done myself. I am a living testament to the power of living your truth and on your own terms. It is the biggest gift you can give yourself and I’d like to be your biggest fan and ally as you walk the path to your personal truth. Contact me if you’re interested in coaching with me or an intuitive reading. I can give you a free 30 minute consultation over the phone to discuss how coaching with me might be the right choice for you. I hope to hear from you soon. Just head over to my contact page and send me an email and I’ll get the ball rolling for you.
Love and Light,